One Woman’s Journey from Heartbreak to Spiritual Awakening
Where to begin? I could start where I lay, curled up on the kitchen floor that night, a knife in my gut, my world blown apart.
Or I could start here, from a place of having proposed marriage to the father of my daughters? Two bookends to a story you know the beginning of, but not the sequel. If you are out there somewhere, reading this, you are without doubt curious about what came next – perhaps also nervous about what you may read. And rightly so, in some ways. You haunted me for years, and scarred me deeply, though no-one is at fault. If you play with fire you have to be prepared to get burnt. And yes, I’ve always liked an adventure. And yes, I’m now older, wiser, and proudly bearing the scars that are evidence of having jumped with both feet into the center of a beautiful, but dangerously blazing, fire.
But these letters are not only a way of saying what I would say to you if you were here, now, after all those years. They are also a way of framing what happened to me after our brief, renewed relationship. They are a way of trying to make sense of some of the extraordinary experiences for which I had no frame of reference at the time. Perhaps most of all, they are my way of saying what needs to be said. In the absence of a personal audience the world is taking your place. Isn’t that what I really always wanted anyway – to find a way of opening myself up to the world rather than restricting my love to just a select few? My lovers have always made themselves scarce at times, unavailable to my love – as all lovers do from time to time no doubt – but you were the extreme, disappearing completely on me. And through them all, I have been gradually learning to spread my love broadly enough that it can encompass the world…
Over a decade ago, two lovers rekindled a passion which had been born years earlier when they had, as young teenagers, shared a deep experience of first love during a summer holiday. With distance and youth as their enemy, their initial romance had eventually faded out. As adults, though, age and technology were on their side, even if distance still remained a challenge.
What follows is the story of what unfolded for one of them following their renewed acquaintance. It is the story of one woman’s journey from heartbreak to spiritual awakening. This intriguing tale of a woman’s journey inwards in search of greater understanding and healing will unfold over the autumn and winter months. Through the letters she writes to her absent lover, we follow her as she deals with fundamental challenges to the beliefs on which her life has been based, and discovers a deeper world she had scarcely believed in.
Join me on this weekly journey, which started 1st September 2013, by simply choosing to follow my blog. The more complete version of the story will eventually be available in print when the right publishing partnership is found.